Since I was very young, I had always made the same wish – the one you see in the title of this post.
I can’t remember when the seed was planted, but it was probably during one of the many praying sessions that I had to attend with my parents when I was really really young. Maybe a times, we were praying to ancestors and I was asked to include a wish in my prayers. Naturally, I didn’t really know what to wish for and asking for toys seemed ridiculous to me. Back then, I kinda remembered my father telling me to wish for good health.
And it got stucked. Year after year, I would mindlessly pray for good health for all my loved ones around me. Be it ancestral session, birthdays, shooting stars, my wish was and is always one and the same.
I have been feeling rather emo for this past year. Because of the various health issues that had came up for me and the people around me. Well, for one thing, Dear2 had been to the hospital twice this year. It breaks my heart to see Dear2 having to go through all that. I did what I could. But, what else could I do than to be there by her side, and wait. I wish that it will never have to occur again.
For another, Dear2, Baby1 and I had been down with illnesses for nearly the past 2 months. Baby1 caught a cold/flu from somewhere and caused allergic reactions. She would vomit nearly everyday. She can’t control their cough and her gut reflexes at this age. She would wake up twice a night coughing because of the allergy, sometimes vomiting too. Thankfully, she had recovered after a third visit to the doctor.
Dear2 and I had been falling sick one after another. I fell sick first with flu that wouldn’t recover for 3 weeks. Dear2 also had flu but she recovered after a week. Then I had stomach flu and/or food poisoning just a few days after my last flu, just last week. And right now, Dear2 is feeling pain and unwell again, which the doctor could provide no proper explanation nor remedy except perhaps to drink water and rest well.
This is besides having to cope with minor health annoyances like joint pain, blood pressure, headaches, toe infection, weight gain, skin infections, and just general tiredness.
I feel that age is catching up with me, in two ways. First, all the health problems, albeit minor ones. Second, I’m starting to appreciate my father’s simple advice – just wish for good health.
I’m not saying that I understand the feelings of those who went through life threatening events. I’m just saying that I am able to see how priceless health and general well-being is.
This will continue to be my one and only wish.
p.s. Get well soon Dear2, I love you.